Sometime i have this unsettling feeling and I cannot pin it down to anxiety or anticipation. Anxiety, its like worrying for a debt you have not even incurred.Anticipation on the other hand gives me the feeling of hope and energy. Anyway I soon realize, I could somehow influence , guide my feeling to a certain extend. If I build a positive , blue print in my mind and believe it 101% , I end up anticipating , my whole senses reacts with such urge to move and to create. A sudden gush of energy!The wonderful part is , the mind starts to plan and jolted me into actions aligned with the thoughts. So I have heard ,..... it has a mind of its own.The next time , my heart feels unsettled , I begin with the end in mind
Interesting , Sometimes is not easy to apply though. I was with colleagues in Subang today, on way to dinner , I was consumed with hunger. OMG. Lost in anticipation of food and food and food. Arrived and ordered dinner , relishing every mouthful .....Great company , great dinner and great conversation and then somehow the conversation moves to topic of security or rather the lack of it in general. Increasing crime rate and all. I looked around and noticed that we were the only patrons there , not so many of us , only 3. My thoughts started to besiege me with all kinds of what ifs...( after all we are in the industrial part of Subang, ). A sudden wave of fear engulfed me and I lost myself in anxiety and guess what it did to me. It unsettled me totally. Period. back in comfort of my hotel room I thought to myself, I wasted that time of life worrying ......anticipation or anxiety. Totally anticipation!!
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